If you’ve been following me for a while you will remember a few months back I found out my right carotid artery is 50-70% blocked. Well, I went in for a follow up ultrasound and she’s still blocked. Now I have to go for CT Scan so that they can get a a clearer picture of the blockage and make sure I’ve not a a stroke (TIA) in the past. Am I scared? Uh, yeah!
More than being scared I miss my Dad. It’s times like these that bring the reality back that he’s no longer here earth side with me. I can still feel his presence, but it’s not the same as him being here. You never get over the loss of someone you love, you never stop missing them and you never forget them. To think that you do or you will is absolutely foolish. Your life begins to grow around the grief, loss and missing. You find different ways to remember them and integrate them in your life at different times.
This situation is one of them. My Dad would have come with me for this appointment, made friends with everyone at the hospital, chatted it up with the person giving me the scan and my Dr. He would have eased some of my fears just by being there and afterwards we would have gone to get a snack.
He’s not here physically, but all of you are 😉 And guess what??? You are all going with me to my appointment and afterwards we are going to @kyrasbakeshop
on 21st and Irving (PDX) and getting a snack!! So mark your calendar’s and save the date! Wednesday, October 23rd at 9:45am it’s going down! I will be sharing in my stories all morning long! We will turn this seemingly bummer situation into a time of supporting, sharing, encouraging and honoring.
We’ll have a snack not only in honor of my Dad and my desire to have him with me, but also anyone else who is missing a loved one.
I determined long ago that I would not let my circumstances break me and I would find the positive in them...no matter what! I can still feel all the feelings and cry all the tears while moving forward and looking for the good.
See ya Wednesday 😘